Hi 😊,I'm LaLuna and I'm going to take you away on a journey through my past, present and future..

Take what you need from the blog. Learn from my experiences, the do's but definitely also the dont's (trust me I made a few🙈).  Follow me through my journey how I became a submissive and how I experienced it irl as online.

My life went on like always from that point. But many times, when I was too full in my head, I missed the peace and quiet. I missed the feeling of having no choice but just to sit and get quiet. And especially the no choice part I missed. But I looked at the BDSM thing I thought it isn’t for me.

So, it became autumn, winter and spring was at the door. The season of tourists started again. And many of my old co workers all would go back to our summer workspot. And of course I went also!

The first night that we all where together and all went to the bar was amazing. The bar had a welcome back party for all the staff in that town. Man, what was I drunk and out of myself. Dancing on the bar with everyone. It was good. But there was no Chef. I was very disappointed...

The next day our shifts started and still no Chef. So, I asked my boss where he was. And my always so sunny minded boss said; “not here”.  I roled my eyes, as I haven’t seen that! That night we went to the bar. And on the end of the bar was sitting a man. He was just looking at me. So, I smiled and didn’t think anything. But after 10 minutes he still was looking. And a friend of mine said there is a man on the end of the bar focused on you. I looked back again and blushed and looked down. Turned around and went further. Having fun with my friends and going to the club. Later that evening I saw him in the club also. I smiled at him and danced further.

Next day still no chef…  Work was busy and me and my co workers were in a laughing mood. A big group of young people arrived in the hotel for a week for vacation. So always fun to have new tourists. In the bar we where flirting, dancing big fun. I was in a naughty mood (I can now say the brat was in me already) and there was that man from the night before again. Looking at me. When I walked by, I smiled. And said to the barkeeper if his beer is empty refill it from me. I was having fun with my friends, but couldn’t resist to look his way every now and then. He was always looking and sometimes he smiled back. My friend said I would freak out if someone is staring at me the whole evening.  I thought normally I wouldn’t like it either. But… with him I didn’t mind.

Later in the night and I was standing in the back of the club. Chilling out. There was a boy clearly flirting with me. So, we where talking and laughing. And yes, he was cute. So, I didn’t mind the attention. The boy came closer and closer. I don’t know why but I felt I needed to look  towards the bar, I looked and my “stalker” (as my friends called him) didn’t looked pleased. He looked straight at me with a face of thunder.    Well… like I said my brat side was activated then already. And I thought. Wtf? You have no right to look so mad at me.

And I turned my attention to the boy  and let him come closer. The next moment the boy was gone, a big warm hand closed around my throat, I got slammed against the wall, a leg between my legs to block me, and a warm intense mouth on mine.  I felt his power and I was immediately wet. The calmed I felt after that in my body was insane. My head went quiet and I didn’t hear anything anymore. My body melted against his. My arms sliding around his neck, pushing myself against him.

He took his mouth of mine, he looked at me, his hand went tighter around my neck and only said Mine! And the only thing I could do was nod… Because at that moment I didn’t want anything else then be his. He smiled at me and said I’m Scott I wanted to say my name but my mouth was dry, and I could only look at him with begging eyes to kiss me again. He laughed and leaded me outside the club. Hand on the back of my neck, I was floating.

Outside he grabbed my hand to walk towards the hotel. And then I saw chef with a big smile.  Miss trouble! There you are. I looked at chef and was so happy but didn’t take a step away from Scott. And chef started to laugh and said he Scott. How did you pick miss trouble out of all those people? I looked confused at them. Chef said; “Scott is my friend from home”.  Hurt I asked is this a set up Chef? The hand that was holding my hand grabbed it tighter. He looked at me and said; “Hell no!”. Scott looked at Chef and said she’s mine. I asked are you just as Chef a Dominant? He answered yes. I said I looked into that. That’s nothing for me. Im absolutely no Submissive. Both Cheff as Scott laughed. Scott pressed his lips against my forehead and said; “you are a natural submissive lil one”.

I was confused, but to be honest.. it felt I was home with them both..  Can I be a submissive? Is this something I want to try?  

I learnt about bdsm from a late friend. I do not have any real life experiences, other then what I did with a few of my past Masters/Doms on video chat.

Not all of them have a happy ending. From 2017 to 2023/24 I did not understand what I was doing or getting myself into, and yes most of you are probably saying "wow that long!"

I once had a protector and mentor in 2020. Let me tell you that vetting, even mentors and protectors are important, as my last one turned out to be a fake.

I've been through a lot of abusive and emotional dymanics, if any Dom/Master ever says 'you need to earn your limits, safeword or aftercare' take my word on it and run and dont look back, beccause no, you don't need to earn any of that they are your right to have, you do not need to earn that.

If a dom/master pushes any of your boundaries before you are ready, run because a true one will not push till you are ready to be pushed. A true dom/master will work with you when you are ready not becasue they want to show you they are in control.

Remember it's up to the sub how much cotrol the Dom has and yes, you may ask what if i give the Dom full control, this is what i will say, you can take most to all of it away at any given time, without reason, through without reason is cruel, it's better to have a reason then none. Just my opinion.

If you are new, research vetting, mentors, protector, limits, safeword and aftercare. Red flags of both doms and subs (yes there are fake subs too, but are harder to spot at times) but remember, ask them if they are new, because new ones could be under a fake Dom's guidance, and new Doms same with you. Don't go taking a slave on your first time joining, learn about what it is to be a Dom; ask for help everyone starts new and everyone makes mistakes.

Asking for help is not a weakness, it shows that you want to learn.

Hi 😊,I'm LaLuna and I'm going to take you away on a journey through my past, present and future..

Take what you need from the blog. Learn from my experiences, the do's but definitely also the dont's (trust me I made a few🙈).  Follow me through my journey how I became a submissive and how I experienced it irl as online. 

First I will explain where and how I grow up.I was raised in a full family. My parents and 3 older sisters. My parents had an own company and my mother was very very feministic. My sisters and I where raised with that as centre. How often I heard man and woman are equils, woman need to go to college and make their own money, we can't be dependent of a man, everything a man can a woman can.

And me youngest off all ( between me and the youngest after that is 8 years), a bit of the suprise. Of course I agreed. I didn't know better. And with 4 feminists in the house you don't know anything else. But at the same time.. I wasn't really interested in it.When the discussions about it came up at home (and trust me that was often) I always felt un easy. And rather was quiet or nod yes to not have to join the discussion.

When I was 17 I started a summer job in another city on the coast. Amazing what a freedom. Not 4 'mother's' above me.

I'm a very extravert person, and have trouble to stay in myself. And most of the time I don't feel good when I'm at that point. But my head has a thousand thoughts in a minute and that makes me extrovert. 

So I started working in a hotel-restaurant-ice store - bar. We worked with a big group of people around my age. Many clubs nearby. It was amazing. But also it made me life to much outside of myself.

In the kitchen worked a Chef. That man had authority all over him. His vibe, precense, voice and his endless self confidence... I was drawn to him immediately. Being near him made me breath. We became unspoken friends.

So after a busy shift he put a barchair in his kitchen near him. And asked do you want to sit here and rest. I say he asked... But no wasn't an answer, I knew it, I felt it in my core.

I loved these moments. Even sitting there made my mind more silent. Made my extrovert behavior more introvert. I stayed more in myself.

Every evening after work we went with a big group from work to a bar and later clubbing. Chef always came along. And we talked every evening about everything. That's the moment I learned about Dominance and submission.He told me he was a Dominant and explained some of it. I was intrigued for sure.

He was my anchor that summer and became great friends (non sexual).

And understand me right I have partied there and had the most amazing time. But to stand with someone who only with his presence made me back into my own borders. Gave me peace and rest. 

Summer was over and I came home in one of the discussions. And it fell as a brick on my tummy. Because the; 'we don't need someone to make our lives'. And the only thing I thought was I do .. I do need someone who helps me to stay by myself.

So I started to look into Dominance. First thing I saw was BDSM... Full on. Pictures of woman tight down on a cross, woman spanked with a peddle. And I was shocked! I was hell no!! No fucking man will hit me! Wtf is this!?! 

This isn't what I experienced. This is not what I want.

So I stopped, didn't looked further and thought this ain't for me!